To the one who could not love me forever:

I have to tell you the truth... I thought you just needed time to think and assess things in your life. I thought you'ld still consider me as part of your life. For 6 years I loved you unconditionally and all you did was force me to find a reason as to why I love you. Well here's my answer to that. There is no reason for loving you... I don't have one. I could give you a million "reasons" if I wanted to but think of it as this way... what if all of those reasons went up in smoke? Do you think I won't love you anymore? My answer is no. I love you because I chose to love you and I dedicated my life to you because you were my world. You were my everything... I never really cared about anything else except you. My very life I gave to you... but I guess you saw it differently. From your friends, they say it could have been destiny. I don't believe in destiny but it's the only way to go for me not to hurt anymore. I never dared to chase you back because it was your decision to go. I will respect your decision because I loved you... that's all. I think we have established too facts now... one, you don't love me anymore and even if I still have feelings for you, you will never feel the same way about me again. Two, we NOW have the capacity to love somebody else. So I guess this is my manner of closing things. Good bye and I hope you will be happy with your life...wherever it may lead you to.

To the one who could not be with me forever:

From the moment I saw you I was mystified. Never would have thought I could find someone like you. All you needed to do was look straight into my eyes and joy just overflows because I know we are feeling the same thing for eachother. Tears uncontrollably roll down my cheeks each time I think of you. A mixture of happiness and sadness which gives me a sense of bliss. Happiness because time was never an issue for us to fall for eachother. I know we have just met but whenever I stare at those beautiful round eyes, time stops for a moment and I enjoyed forever... just in your eyes. We spoke different languages but I know it was our hearts that were talking... we understood each word, each smile... each caress. We didn't really need words to show meaning into everything. But for now, my heart is filled with sadness. As I let you off at the airport, I know that I won't be seeing you again. Not for a long time. Each time I think about it my heart aches and I really want to cry out and ask you to run into my arms. I'll hold you tight and I won't let go. I would ask you to be with me forever and by god I will do everything in my power to treat you right. But I can't... not like this. We are living different lives and after what happened to me. I could not trust myself on this kind of relationship again. Because of you I understood the importance of companionship. I won't be there to hold your hand, to hug you when you're down. I won't be there to kiss you and massage you and tell you "as long as I'm here, everything will be alright." I'm completely terrified that history might repeat itself. So for now, all I can be is just a friend. I will be there for you though every step of the way... in mind, in heart... in spirit. And who knows, only time will tell what could happen. I hope you don't forget me when you get back to Australia ... you have already taken a part of me with you and I will never forget you. Maybe someday I can find a way to come to you and make me whole again... with you in my life. So goodbye for now honey... take care and have a safe trip home.